Cannot Be Carefree

Good evening everyone hope everyone having nice time around. Well, I am starting up with my project matter again I guess I am having good time around spending my time on project with interesting research content on “Long Distance Relationship”. As if now, I am stick to it now I would love to share some experiences through my mood board picture which I have designed just now in PS. That is, girl missing boy, but Boy also missing her as and all he is never expressive towards her that hurts her feelings. Long Distance relationship is all the time complicated and delicate to handle. Because, boy and girl live far away from each other never know what they are doing every minute and every second. This brings frustration. Let us talk about psychology of men in love.

Men are not expressive always like girls. Men always say “Oh come on I am busy right now why the heck are you bothering me??” then girl get tear drops just like waterfalls lol... Now why men are not expressive?? Interesting factor is men do not like to chat neither type for so long for girls. Or they do not update much about themselves with their beloved one. This is their characteristic we cannot blame them. Now if  I will take the example from my experience I have been always wondering why does not he give the updates just like me?? Or why does he loose temper so often when I say “I miss you”,. It is because we are staying far away and he does not understand what to do when I say that, his side will be confused and with the minute he will be freeze thinking that “Oh God now how to console this girl?” Men are not much emotional in the case of love. I cannot give free judgment I guess may be they are not expressive but they hide feelings in heart. It totally depends on their mood..

Psychology of girls is also complicated I guess. Girls are very sensitive most of my friend asked me to stay carefree if he does not give you any message. I just don’t understand how can we be carefree?? Okay, if we will be carefree, our heart always drags into PC again and our hands automatically pull towards keyboard then we will keep on type “Where are you??? Why are you not updating me??” After the seconds of time here the messages pings out “I am busy girl sorry don’t bother me”. And countdown starts 1,2,3 tears down… I wish to see in long distance how my boyfriend will behave when I cry?? Will he be worried?? Or will he leave it aside then diverts himself with friends to get away from tears? Or he enjoys it?? Hmmm its weird thing to live on. Have you ever experienced this weird thing??

The bad factor is we do not know what he or she is doing exactly in “Long Distance Relationships?” Girls are so sincere and always go to fairytale land of world that they always give messages” Dear I had my lunch I had my diner or I am doing works” where as boys are not certain type I am sure.. So luckily I have consulted one of my friend who is also experiencing the essence of Long distance relationships.. And her statement was “No matter how much they are busy?? No matter if he or she is not replying your messages on time, you must stop concerning about it deeply and instead you have to divert with some other works”.

The moral is “Come on have patience. If you really want to be committed for long time until marriage never force your partner to come online. Otherwise the situations will become worse. Because, love is not force. If he or she is right in front of you, it is easy to shower your feelings either tears or happiness. But what if he or she is staying far away from you always share positive things happening in your life. Once you start sharing negative aspects, everything will go negative it may lead to break up .” I think I must follow this tip to save my long distance relationship. So I got fantastic idea again that I will implement this particular statement in my movie showing with interesting narrative structure. God my head is cracked down now..

So I will have cup of tea until then I wish you all have happy time but the next article is coming up about Chinese movie review.. Certainly after sometime.. 

So this is my mood board picture which I have made it in PS..
This is the certain common feeling
of lovers who are experiencing
Long Distance Relationships
And also this is the feeling which is
coming from my heart..
This is my theme poster
for my movie "Smile To Your Life"

Make it sense Come on...

Writing the love story is one big task actually. As I have seen every love story has one common sense so called “Romance” based on this style the love stories are made in different ways. Some are modernized and some are classical. As I have to mention one famous quote here “A successful story thus necessarily shows a more harmonious relationship of a part to whole, and part to part. Everything must work with everything else. Everything enhances everything else, inter-relates with everything else is inseparable from everything else. And all this is done with a necessary and perfect harmony”. So what you have all got from this quote? What I personally understood is, we must make the story carefully checking the each and every part then frame it with perfect harmony so that the movie comes out with right sense.

I guess I made some sense. Anyways, Yesterday I sat in library and I have read the book on how to make screenplay for dramatic movies. And of course I can say, my movie is totally based on drama genre. And its all about Online dating as I mentioned. While doing research I have come across one interesting element is that “In every drama story Protagonist and Antagonist is necessary”. Protagonist depicts the character as a struggler or well behaved wise person who aims to achieve his or her final destiny. Where as Antagonist means “anti” which depicts as obstacle. I am so sorry to say, it is just not only villain in the movie but it can be any obstacle that comes across in hero’s life. Like, big mountain burden on his head or getting his or her beloved one fighting against every hardship or sweating out for success to achieve his or her final dream. Surprisingly as part of my research when I watched every movie, “Antagonist” is playing vital role in movies. The truth is, in every person’s life anti things will definitely take place. And we will think and crack our heads how to sort out the solution?? The same thing directors are completely implementing on movies from which viewers are gaining the effect of real life experience.

There is no movie without Antagonist. I think even in comedy movies also there will be Antagonist playing vital role. The story will become more interesting if the antagonist is taking part in it. I can say, in my movie also I am balancing both protagonist and antagonist. As I said, my movie is about On-line dating relationship. Now here the Protagonists are hero and heroine who will love each other very deeply through social networking sites. And they see wonderful colorful love world everywhere. At the same time, they will also struggle to survive their relationship for long period. What about my antagonist in my movie. I guess its reflecting a lot in my story lol. Most of them do not really support Long Distance relationships. Now here the point arises I am going to place interesting scenes for my movie, which means heroine will have sort of negatives shades like for instance she will always mis-understand him or she will sometimes feel insecure of missing him very badly and finally she gets into arguments with her boyfriend that why he is not coming to online? The same ways hero will also have the negative shades that he will loose temper on her very often and sometimes he thinks to do break up. Why these certain problems arises either it could be “Family problems,” or friends who will always try to degrade their relationship either hyper career problem. Now the movie will turn more interesting if all these elements I could frame in proper, perfect harmony. It will happen when I can really observe certain things happening in my life which I am practically experiencing the online dating issue. Sometimes it is bitter and sometimes it is sweet.

So right now, I am stick to the concept of on-line dating. Now I will take these points in my mind and I am trying to frame out the screenplay in short. Somewhat I got the rough idea. Very soon I am going to publish it how did I get into ideas.

So dear friends please listen to me carefully, while making a drama genre movie keep the two things in your mind “Protagonist vs Antagonist” What do you say? Am I correct?  

I am an Idiot who did not update my own blog and lost my track. I would say sorry for myself.. :(

Good evening all my dear friends almost I wish to say my dear fans lol. Well Gosh it’s been many days I am writing blog and I feel so weird right now that what I have to express?? I do not understand anything. Since four days I am not updating any sort of blog. And guess what? I was busy with some minor reasons which cannot count in the hype of scale. I was busy with fresher’s party preparations which took place last Friday. Although I danced and sung one song which does not sound exhausting but during practicing hours, I was really exhausted. I used to come home like one dead pig and I used to sleep on bed without having dinner. May be I am getting lazy towards, but I must admit this is my fault I did not update any blog. Oh I was so bad.

How I wish I could be on track now my mind is little blocked because I do not understand where to begin it?? Coz I have faced some sever mental problems with my family at house and trust me I was literally involved into bad fight and I spoilt my mood everything by my own hands. This is not giving any profit to me. So I am ready to bang my head off against wall thinking all the time “Why did I involve?? Oh come on why did I involve”?? Anyways I want to be professional so I shall move away this issue from my heart and from my brain I will work on the project sincerely from this hour to everyday.

Well the day I have choose the concept about online dating I was involved into it that I forgot my world and I have always getting fascinated to do any sort of thing. Funny thing is even though if I will listen to songs I get some stupid idea that if I will put one duet song in my movie??  And I am not going to loose my track at all. I love to do my project and I am very much proud to say that I am doing film on online dating which is partially related to my story and rest of all can also actively take part in involving their characters into movie. I want to make best movie ever. And for that I am reading so many books I have watched hell lot of Cantonese movies,. But there is still some afraid in my heart, because I am coming to my college alone sitting in library and reading some books. But then I realized this is what all about self-study.. And then slowly I was getting afraid that I can do it or not/? Just before one hour I sat quietly in one corner and I thought to dedicate myself into my movie and not to care the rest world what the heck they speak?? I love my movie I love my project.. Oh come on I will cheer up myself that I can do it..

So dear friends, from tomorrow I would be updating my blog again with some research document that what happens in Long-Distance and also I would be reading so many books and techniques to do best screenplay. Well I won’t give up. But as for now give me some little to think where did I begin from?? Gosh I hate myself 

Working on story is tough time…

18/9/2011 Sunday, I think I have really put my brain into lots of story construction process and the story line was decided that “Boy and Girl will meet each other through online dating sites and slowly fall in love from normal text chatting into romantic world experience. Then the dark sides of relationship will develop. Finally, girl will try to leave boy and she tries to move on very hard. And thus boy cannot endure the pain of loosing her so he decides to meet her. Successfully they will meet each other in one restaurant (*Note :- not yet decided the exact location*)  and they will happily live ever after”. Sounds pretty lame for me. I think it could sound lame for you all too. But this is just the brief story. Now to make a movie we must make perfect screenplay.

Since two days I have been reading the books about how to make fantastic screenplays in short films. But honestly, I still get sort of confusion in developing best screenplay. When I was scribbling my brain so hard into the focus point, I got one more point to be noted down for my film that, girl and boy will meet each other through online sites, but their simple love-story will turn out to be extra-ordinary. Like for instance, girl will transform into better human being and boy will also change slowly into better person after meeting his love. So this could be stated probably as “True love has changed them”.. Now to develop the story, I must really think a lot. Finally I got the rough outline for my story which I have already mentioned above. I was reading so many Long-Distance relationships stories which are truly happened. Then I have realized for every couple there were interesting situations took place. And I was amazed to know from the fact that people are awaiting for the movie which can be based on “Online-dating issues”. May be I am the first director lol?? No I am not at all bringing up my name myself into the height 6 feet tall sky.. Right now, my brain is completely loaded.

Making screenplays for love-story is truly complicated thing. I guess how the Film Industry is working with so many love-stories??. In this whole giant world, there are1 million above film releases, out of them, lakhs of love-story movies are releasing with different sort of screenplays. Then I have got the point that, making film from real life experience brings more interest to viewers. Right now, I am already developing story and then I came out with the rough outline figure. Now I am going to add more details into it. But before that, I have to first research about screenplays. But I think, I must also take on researching about men and women psychology in relationships. So that, I can develop wonderful story. So this is plan. So what do you guys think?? If you have suggestions I would love to know.. Are you hearing??? Whoever your?? Eagerly waiting for the feedbacks..

But now, I am going to share my beautiful works which I have made in Photoshop all by my self for my movie “Smile to Your life”. Its romantic poster and it truly dedicated to Long-Distance lover who will always miss their partners. And who will away think that “No matter how long the distance is?? Heavenly angels will bless the love and will never let you go away Smile To Your Life that is the biggest gift ever” I am sharing with you all Hope you all can enjoy it..

Smile to your life…

"No matter how the long distance is, Heavenly Angel will bless our love
Smile To Your Life..
Loving you with smile"__Theme Wallpaper created by me
in Adobe PhotoShop CS4
for my movie "Smile To Your Life"

"You And Me forever.. Never Let you go Away. The storm will
never break us apart. Never get afraid of Long Distance
Because I love you truly, you love me truly
Smile To Your Life
My dear Love"__Theme wallpaper created by me in Adobe
Photoshop CS4 for my movie
Smile to Your Life... 

Good Day for taking photographs for my Movie ^__^

So today is 17/09/2011, Saturday sorry I mean tonight. After having the whole rough day with my mother and our bloody family discussions, I could not understand how to move a step ahead. Well, the love is getting down to low degree these days in our family. Hmmm, the word love can be used everywhere I guess. Anyways I am coming to the topic. After having the rough day, I decided to go out along with my sister to have some chill time. Then we sat in the same Saroor Nagar Park near by to our house, which is most beautiful place where I can find so many beautiful love couples over there. But I did not waste my time either; I thought to take wonderful pictures which can be helpful for my movie “Smile to Your Life”.

Today, I have done one small exercise again. I took so many photographs for my movie of various locations. Thanks to dear sister Santoshi, who accompanied me all the way. And I captured so many pictures which is actually I can define as my “Mood Board”. Today climate was so wonderful. Gloomy, cloudy and drizzling rainy, and I felt the climate was so romantic with cool breeze passing through my face. I felt so refreshing. Then later, I was observing each and every location it was really looking beautiful near by lake. I could not stop myself taking photographs I am sure it was looking most lovely and romantic. Fortunately I was also able to cover some cute couples in the park.

Interestingly, what I learnt from this exercise is how to hunt for locations related to your concepts??? And how to use Mood Board photos effectively in your movie?? Frankly speaking, after taking the photos, I got enough idea for hunting the exact locations related to my movie. And, I was able to notice the exact color mood and lighting that how can I use for my movie?? Today I found the climatic conditions was very dull, but I really got the fantastic view the some way how I am visualizing for my film locations. So I am going to share the photographs with you all, I hope you will feel romantic..

Come to the world of romance now…

The photo was taken during evening in a beautiful park near by my house which is  walk able
distance nearly for 15 minutes.
And the evening was so beautiful I guess the picture looks quiet romantic
Mood Board Picture
No.1

The photo was taken during evening in a beautiful park near by my house which is  walk able
distance nearly for 15 minutes.
And the evening was so beautiful I guess the picture looks quiet romantic
Mood Board Picture
No.2

The photo was taken during evening in a beautiful park near by my house which is  walk able
distance nearly for 15 minutes.
And the evening was so beautiful I guess the picture looks quiet romantic
Mood Board Picture
No.3

The photo was taken during evening in a beautiful park near by my house which is  walk able
distance nearly for 15 minutes.
And the evening was so beautiful I guess the picture looks quiet romantic
Mood Board Picture
No.4

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.5

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.6

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.7 (Trying to experiment the shot)

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.8 (Trying to experiment the shot)

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.9 (Trying to experiment the shot)

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.10 (Trying to experiment the shot)

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.11 (Trying to experiment the shot)

The colony evening shot.. Mood Board Picture No.12 (Trying to experiment the shot)

Evening shot in Beautiful Saroor Nagar Lake.
Look at it, doesn't that seem so romantic woww..
Mood Board Picture No.13

Evening shot in Beautiful Saroor Nagar Lake.
Look at it, doesn't that seem so romantic woww..
Mood Board Picture No.13

Love Couple getting chilling around in Park.
Evening Shot Mood Board Picture No.14 

Love Couple getting chilling around in Park.
Evening Shot Mood Board Picture No.15

Love Couple getting chilling around in Park.
Evening Shot Mood Board Picture No.16

Love Couple getting chilling around in Park.
Evening Shot Mood Board Picture No.17

The beautiful dusk clouds, Evening shot (Trying to experiment the image)
It was really beautiful, gloomy and cool
feel so refreshing.. Good for the mood of love
Mood Board Picture No.18

The beautiful dusk clouds, Evening shot (Trying to experiment the image)
It was really beautiful, gloomy and cool
feel so refreshing.. Good for the mood of love
Mood Board Picture No.19

The beautiful dusk clouds, Evening shot (Trying to experiment the image)
It was really beautiful, gloomy and cool
feel so refreshing.. Good for the mood of love
Mood Board Picture No.20

The beautiful dusk clouds, Evening shot (Trying to experiment the image)
It was really beautiful, gloomy and cool
feel so refreshing.. Good for the mood of love
Mood Board Picture No.21

The beautiful dusk clouds, Evening shot (Trying to experiment the image)
It was really beautiful, gloomy and cool
feel so refreshing.. Good for the mood of love
Mood Board Picture No.22

Long-Distance is truly complicated issue..

Yesterday that is, on 15/09/2011 I am so sorry that I could not update the blog when I wanted to. As usual may be for others it may sound as lame excuse but I had suffered with severe acidity problem. Anyways I am going to stop the point about health. But yesterday, I have done research about Long-Distance relationship at some point. Then interestingly, I found that, Long-Distance relationship is widely popular in America. Nearly 4.5 million people are committed with long distance relationship. Can you believe that? I was so shocked and I was amazed. I thought, may be I am the one victim lol. But, 4.5 Million are fascinated towards it.

I have found out the reason why people are nowadays seeking computers to date one person. It is because of technology development. Perhaps people these days are not finding enough time to go out and enjoy. So they hang up in computers instead of reality world. The other thing I was really shocked to know the fact that, professional like IT employees are largely connected with online dating issues. It is because, from day to night they will in front of PC and they will work until their eyes turns into red color and nerves come out lol. But, computers are getting fascinated only because of online dating sites? I cannot imagine.

For example, I have seen so many of my friends logging into Internet and immediately they will browse Facebook first. Facebook has just become like one family. Many of the professional people are getting connected to you through Facebook. And if I said “No I don’t have Facebook” they will look at me in such a way as if Alien has arrived on planet earth from Mars. Or World has end from now on. I still remember one of my faculties sorry cannot reveal out his name he said “How can you lead your life without facebook? It is like living yourself in one home without cable connection” So, through these stamens I can clearly figure out that people are truly connected towards social networking sites

Now I am going to say the dark sides of long-distance relationship story. I have one American friend, her name is La Williams. I met her through Myspace.com. She was good, until I knew that she dated my boyfriend secretly lol. I had one break up in long-distance who is an American and his name is Steve Murphy. I was so immature I gone to him and I have dated him blindly. Every night he used to chat with me and suddenly he used to disconnect away. I could not catch up his updates nearly for two to three days and I was clueless. The funny thing was he used to take his dog for ride and never came back online again until 1 week. I used to laugh may be he is vanished with dog. Then when the days passed on, I caught up with truth that one of my good Internet friend La Williams shared one happy news with me that she met one boy in Myspace.com. I said the same thing too. We both have screamed on skype with excitement. And then, slowly she was showing the love letters of her boyfriend. Seeing every word in that letter made my nerves weak, and I was recognizing the same letter I got too from my boyfriend. Then we both have come to conclusion that, the person so called “Steve Murphy” was dating me and La Williams simultaneously through online. Who knows???? That he was telling truth or false? See, now this is the reason mostly people do not believe in Long-distance or online-dating issues. I must say, sometimes I feel like every social networking sites have to be banned.

What do you say? Are you listening to me whoever your?? I am afraid that may be in future, sex can happen through online or what?? Who’s to see??? 

Beauty does not really matter, even though it is Long Distance love

But unfortunately I cannot calm down sometimes. I think I am too nosy knowing the facts from him. May be because I cannot see my love what he is doing there in different country. It sounds really fascinating but it is not. Well, I start comparing myself to historical queens that they used to wait for their husband for homecoming from wars. To inform their husbands how much they love, they used to send letters through pigeons. What a beautiful communication!!! I guess now I am just like queen and my boyfriend can be King. Where as mails are pigeons. Haha sounds really funny. But major overlaps I am not queen. I am sure queens had never suspected their Prince or King whatever it is. But I did stupid thing since yesterday. I will share one interesting issue here. I have done the research yesterday about men’s psychology from elders’ point of view. They gave plain statement that “If girls are so beautiful, then men will surely get attracted to them and they will be committed forever. If it is not possible, then men will leave keep on ignore them” darn!! I thought it was such a ridiculous pain. By the way, I heard this saying from my mom. I was deeply involved into the topic, then my heart beats rose very fast when I visualized about my lover. He is also staying somehow far away from me, when I put on webcam I look so pale, black, and very weak like stinky pig. Because I come to home with whole lot of pollution on my face. I am just the victim of ugly looking sort of insecure feeling. Now that is really sad thing.

And I have put on webcam normally to chat with my hero. And he was so handsome that night, which no wonder I was truly flattered and I just looked into him but did not utter one single word. He thought I’m almost dead lol. And he pinged me up suddenly “What is wrong?”. Then I asked one stupid question “Do you love me?”. He said “Of course I do, why do you think I do not love you?”. Then I have shared the discussions of elders’ statement on men. Then he said “So?” and I started the topic “May be you will also leave me because I am not that beautiful person”. Frankly speaking, yes, I am not so good looking, I am not charming, I am just black, and sometimes I sweat a lot. I am not hot or sexy bombshell. I do not wear mini-skirts. I just follow my own style of tradition. And my hero is perfectly alright with it. He was so good that he never pointed out on my outfits yet. Perhaps his mood has become worse once I started to suspect him. And he immediately reacted “Come on, calm down, I am not that handsome either. By the way, I do not really care about beauty, what matters for me is heart and soul and your really beautiful because you care about me so why the hell you suspect me?. I never suspected you please forgive me I must leave for works” Then darn he was offline just disconnected the chat. I was completely afraid then I have buzzed him repeatedly he said “Sorry dear I am busy with works” I took long breathe and I was exhausted mentally. How I seriously wish I can stay there so that I can figure out what does he really feels about me.

Fantastic thing I learnt today for my topic. Is anyone hearing to me??? I was thinking in a wrong way all through my life that, true love only relays on outer beauty. But I am crushed. I realized that true love does not depend upon the way how you look it matters with the soul and heart. The beautiful logic from my research comes out that, we can modify our face by using so many cosmetics, we can makeover our looks, and we can buy so many beautiful dress. But we cannot change the heart. Because it is so sensitive if you change it will die. Yes it is really true. And I think sometimes these issues can happen because of long distance problems. I was deeply moved by it haha. Today I went to Saroor Nagar park, where I found so many love birds chit-chatting together and passing through nice time. I saw each and every lover was looking so ordinary and not much good looking in appearance. So what we see in films is different but what we see in real world is T-totally opposite.

Thought for the day “Never run for looks and calm down girl calm down. No matter if he stays far away from you, come on you gotta believe him because he is true”

Guess this is the best point for my movie. I am so excited haha.

Madhu will call it as the end for tonight. But tomorrow I will put up more about the documentation with some extra effort on my work. I will keep on going

 Good Night and keep smiling..

The magic Of True Love makes my life so happy…

Why the distance between you and me so longer??? I just cannot endure the pain of living far away from you. Honey do you know?? How much I really miss you? My heart knows, this is so crazy it craves for you. Every night I get the memories of you. Why don’t you say something “Do you really miss me?” I know you miss me a lot. But I am still afraid that one day you will leave me. Because you and me have long distance. How I wish I can see you 24 hours, your smile and happiness. I am so jealous of other girls in your place who will always see you. But why is Valentine cupid keeping me far away from you??? I cannot express my true feelings, because I know you would be worried if I cry. So for you, I will endure my tears and I will give wonderful smile to you. I still remember what you have told me, “Honey please smile!!. Smile will suit you. Smile to your life. Because, I am staying far away from you do not let me worry, I care about you, can you promise me??”. I still keep up the promise. I am walking alone on streets and I am just thinking about you. What a magic of true love?? Oh God, wherever I am seeing, I can only catch the shadow of you and I can feel you. You’re in my heart so I am not alone. I am taking our beautiful time, with me wherever I go so that I will feel that you’re beside me, holding my hand walking on the sand of sea shore. At night, when I see the moonlight, I will say “Oh Moon Oh Moon, please send my dearly wishes to my love. He is working hard keep him safe and keep him relaxed”. People around me are laughing at me, thinking that I am crazy to love such a person to whom I have not met still. But I don’t care. No wonder, your far away from me, I feel so secured with you. I believe you, I trust you. I miss you very very badly. Can you feel my emotions???

But boy has the real emotions too. No wonder he is living far away from me, he too miss me so much. That is why I read his heart. He did not say anything, but I can read his eyes. One day he spoke to me, “Do not worry dear, no matter wherever your, my true love will always follow you. I trust you more than myself; I love you more than myself. Who am I?? This is not just me this is not just you, we are not two, we are one. One in inside in one soul feeling true feelings of our emotional love journey. I miss you too, as how much you miss me. But I adjust to the attitude of my heart. Sometimes I feel, when can I settle down?? So that I can marry with you at once.  Dear do you trust me? Our love is so powerful and very unique, everyone is moved by us. And I must say I love you so much and I will never let you go till the end of Universe.. Our love is refreshing as lovely baby smile. Our love is cute like two teddy bears kissing each other. So can you trust me that I love you truly??”..

The experience of this is so touching, and no wonder, true love experience can happen anywhere. I just feel like I am historical woman who is waiting for her King after the war trip. But I am the Princess in his heart. The Long Distance will not bother me. But I am still insecure of this. When I see the love couple around me, I will miss him so badly my fate is so terrible I cannot break this journey… 

Do not let you go
Our love is in the air
and our love is still refreshing like little baby smile
 and two cute teddy bears kissing each other.
I love you till the end of Universe 

Do not let you go
Our love is in the air
and our love is still refreshing like little baby smile
 and two cute teddy bears kissing each other.
I love you till the end of Universe

The theme wallpaper for "Smile to Your Life"
which is technically, I have build up
the image in Photoshop CS4 all by
myself

I really could not endure my tears.... :((

When people are crying about break-up relations, then just imagine what happens if your love will die from your heart??? From your eyes that you cannot see them anywhere, not even you can see the world of your love land, or cannot live in the wonderful place of love world? It is so miserable thing. I can feel it. When I am just thinking about long distance love then I realized there are also some people who are still living with the memories of their dead love. Today I have seen one beautiful film called “Tiramisu” which is in English title but it is actually Cantonese movie directed by Dante Lam and starring Nicholas tse, Karena lam. I just could not endure my tears while watching this film trust me it was so painful when I have really involved into it.

The story revolves around one girl whose name is “Jane (Karena Lam) is a well sharp dancer who wants to fulfill her desires to make her dancing institute to be spotted in the world no.1 rankings. She is most hard working person who works sincerely on her dreams; her life style is amazing and very much wealthy with family culture. There is another person whose name is Ko Fung (Nicholas tse) who works as post-man but unfortunately, he cannot hear the noisy world he leads his life in silent era since childhood. Jane falls for Ko Fung while traveling to and fro to home in train. One day Ko fung visits dance institute to deliver the letter to Jane’s teams in which it mentions that they have been entered to finals. That means, they have gained wonderful reputation. The next day Ko Fung visits travels in train again but he could not find Jane anywhere. During the same time, he gets official message to deliver the parcel at Jane’s residence. Ko Fung becomes happy and he goes to Jane’s house keeping in mind that he could get wonderful chance to meet her again. But soon and all he realizes Jane is actually dead in an accident while crossing the sub-way. Jane’s soul visible to only Ko Fung because, she mentions that, while dying she was thinking about him and Ko Fung was also thinking about her. Jane will have only 7 days to live on earth but she asks one favor to Ko Fung that he could dance in the finals along with her team to full-fill her desire before she leaves. Ko Fung agrees with her decision and he takes in Jane soul completely into his body so that he can full-fill her desire. There is just 7 days time for her, but meanwhile there are underworld cops (which means the people who come from hell), will try to snatch away Jane. Ko Fung immensely falls in love with Jane that he could not endure the pain without her so however he tries to rescue her from cops. Underworld hell cops will realize the true love of Ko Fung with Jane and they will decide to give one chance to the couple. Ko Fung, comes to final dance event night with Jane. On that auspicious night, all her friends and family will have chance to see Jane in live and to touch her but on one condition that she must leave world after the final night. Jane begins her dance with her teammates and everyone show up their wonderful performance on stage. Shows ends up with success finally, and at end Jane hugs Ko Fung leans on his shoulder and weeps a lot. Ko Fung asks Jane to stay here for some more time but Jane says it is impossible favor; Ko Fung will seek to come along with Jane forever and ever, so that he can accompany her. But Jane would not accept his proposal and she asks him to lead the life with happiness and to full-fill his wishes. Therefore, the films ends up with tearful departure of Jane to heaven and Ko Fung remains alone without her at the end he literally cries down but he keeps her memories with him forever and ever.

This is such a wonderful love story oh my god. I cannot believe how the director could have made it so beautiful. I have shed down my tears and I bowed down my head then I have cried so badly after watching the painful ending. I just involved deeply into it and I thought why the true love is so painful?? When there is true love someone or something must be lost. Ko Fung loved one ghost but for him it was not just ghost she was just like Princess and he keeps her in his heart he had beautiful palace with her memories. Even though it is fantasy film it has completely touched my heart. The distance in love is obviously painful thing. But if I cry for my love when he stays far away from me, what would people think about their lost love in heaven? Who are still leading their lives with their memories?? That is what the magic of true love is.

True love is so powerful. You won’t even know what your doing, but you will know you did best , you did best for yourself, you changed, you changed as wonderful human being. True love has the power to sacrifice the happiness. May be it is long-distance, I sacrificed much things for my love, but I am so happy.

If I will die, I want to have one wish, I must born again like his soul mate once gain. This film made me to think so much deeply about love. And this is wonderful film ever I have seen. Technically if I will talk about, Dante Lam is actually Kung Fu films director. But he narrated the film in beautiful structure, with wonderful screenplay. It is completely fantasy genre when he imagined the hell people like “Underworld Cops”, may be it sounds childish, but he carried every emotion so effectively that anyone can involve. And you will come out after watching this movie, saying to yourself “Wowww such a wonderful movie” . This movie proves very well, true love is there, true love exists. Power of true love is so strong that it can defeat storms and tsunami coming across you.

I had wonderful time watching this movie. But also it gave me benefit of getting new ideas for my screenplay. I would add more emotions for my film. And my movie is totally emotional even though it is Long-Distance. It’s all about missing your partner so badly but once you meet him, you will lean on him, happiness forever. Tiramisu helped me lot. Thanks to Dante Lam

Well for now it seems to say Good Bye for a moment. So this is me Madhu signing off today, will be posting new updates in my blog tomorrow. With much more interesting elements on my concept and my daily activities that I am doing for my movie. 

Good Night have a nice day tomorrow keep smiling…

 

I am completely moved by this movie and I am getting inspired from this story. Thanks to Dante Lam for presenting such a wonderful love story.. 

Survey went on well ^__^

Thanks for all my dear friends who gave me wonderful answers, for my question "The opinion about Long-Distance relationships"..Well it was quiet interesting because, I got different answers from everyone. I thought, most of them could be against to Long Distance Relationship issues. But I was amazed knowing the answers that, Long Distance relationships can also work out. It was quiet interesting fact although. Most of them have admitted that nowadays there is no mutual understanding between couple this is the only reason why the final journey is leading to break-up.

Some of them have shared their bitter experiences in their love life revealing out the fact that, the couple will always come across any sort of hardships. But some of them may take it as over burden some of them can deal it with patience. This is what many of my friends and Public said that "Long Distance relationships can work out, when you understand your partner every time and most important is Trust. If you can trust him or her and if you will give enough space to breathe that time relationship can work out no mater if it is Long Distance or live". Yes this is truth, i completely agree with this. I am so sorry to say this that, these days mutual understanding is lacking. If I can say from my personal experience I sometimes do not understand him, but sometimes I really understand him. But the fact is, I really love him. Love is space and freedom. So, all the feelings really arises naturally. Human feelings are so complicated to discuss about. Because, we don't know when we will fall for one person and we can break out??? It is just time..

But no matter whatever happens, what I realized is Love is divine, beautiful, precious on Planet. So  I will understand him at every second no matter how much far away he lives from me. Because I care his feelings.

If anyone really forces you to always talk and spare time, we feel it is annoying but only few of them can really understand that "Yes the person is going so desperate about us". So loving yourself is also important. Hmm I think I have truly realized much more interesting factors of Long Distance relationships from Public Interview.

Here the final word is "Please develop mutual understanding, break out egos and sort out problem clearly, never hide anything from your partner no matter it is good or bad or hurting the feelings, we must spell it out just to make them know the real sense of he or she's feelings. But never take any situation complicated, patience!! Patience!!! Patience!!!

So this is me Madhu signing off from my blog, tomorrow I will update my blog much more interesting, well right now, I am working very much hard on my script and screenplay to bring perfect shape for my movie. Dear do not worry we will make it...

Smile To Your Life ^__^ Good Night everyone wish you HAPPY SUNDAY tomorrow. 

The painful thing is "when your lover will not have time to listen to your problems"

Yeah, the fact is sometimes your beloved one will not have enough time to listen to your problems. This is the dis-advantage carrying in "Long Distance Relationships”. Let’s take it from my experience. Today was such a bad day my parents have discouraged me with their fear that whether I can pass this project in future or not. According to me, it is not such a big problem, it is quiet natural for them to feel in that way, future is not in my hands as long as I have time I am working on my path very much sincerely. The most painful thing arises, when your lover will not have enough time to listen to your problems. Because he or she may be busy. As it happened to me today when I was sharing my problems my love could not hear me because he was busy with his study works. Boys are boys they will have so many affairs to do. But girls will rely on them. Hey, it is not in a bad way however we can understand that point. But somewhat there is grief that he could not listen to me. I felt so painful telling him "Good Bye" because the minute I thought, he can spend with me and I spoke to myself "Come on he lives far away from you , you must understand". And I straightened myself, then I said "Hmm okay good luck bye", but situation became worse he said "Your always angry with me". 

See, lets take this in one interesting way, you may miss your boyfriend or girlfriend oh what a eagerness to chat with him or her. But what a pity your free time and his free time will not match. If one day he is busy you will be free, if you will be free he will be busy. The disadvantage factor in "Long Distance relationships" is time factor. That is what, I am going to put this part of speech in my movie. I think I felt more painful when my love did not care my feeligs because of his busy affairs than my parents discouraging words. Hmmmm, at that time I may think "How I wish he could be over here so that he can understand me". If you guys have really experienced these things when you were in "Long distance" it would have been so painful feeling just like me. And the love is such a beautiful spirit, if your down, at that time when Your lover will tell you “Honey do not worry whatever happens, I am with you, do not cry, smile, smile, look at my face. I am in your heart and why fear?? So my sweetheart now has to smile come on give me one smile baby, yeah now that is like my sweetheart you look so cute in smile you know that?” wowww for a girl it gives so much happiness. But this is not just our dreams this is also boys dreams if they are down, their girlfriend can give encouragement in same way.

Therefore we cannot expect these sweet situations can happen in Long Distance Relationships. It is entirely different task. If your sad your partner will not be happy because he or she will be always thinking about you, frustration arises “Oh God why?? Why??? Why am I not beside him or her?? I should have been there how I wish he or she can be happy now??”. So we do not know the emotions. It is so helpless.

So all I wanted to say “Patience, calm, quiet and piece”. Because you cannot loose your love just like that. All the qualities which I mentioned just now is quiet important. Realization will pass through in true love.

So may be you all have understood what I am trying to say. So dear friends I have one small question. Can you all tell me “what is your opinion about love??” and what is your opinion about “Long Distance relationships”

I would love to hear answers from you..

This is me Madhu signing off, tomorrow it is gonna be interesting day, because I am going outside to take interview with people where I will be putting the same questions in front of them. Woww lets see how may different answers I can get?? It can help me for the part of my research and my project gonna be more interesting Just you all need to wait and see.

Good night everyone, keep smiling wish you all happy day tomorrow and remember “Smile To Your Life”

Dil Toh Bacha hain ji...

Sorry dear friends I am not making one Hindi movie but its still in English haha. Actually, do you know the meaning of this word called "Dil toh bacha hain ji?" that means our Heart is really crazy. Honestly it is yes. Can somebody tell me who is not crazy about their loved one??? Almost everyone is crazy. Whenever there is time, either he or she wish to talk to their partner. Wowww I feel so romantic now.. I think I miss my lover too. However what a pity I cannot so often see him or meet him..

Anyways let us come to topic :-). What s the word called "Jealousy in love? " Love is such a beautiful thing, we have so may emotions hidden in our heart. But no offense intended for the word "jealousy" because this happens when you love someone so in deep. But not much worse if the person is there in front of you, however the drawback in long distance relationship is, you do not know the real emotions of your lover. This is what happened to me today. I was talking to my boyfriend by voice yesterday evening, it went on very peacefully. But this morning, it was quiet and all worse. Because, he has appreciated his classmate who is girl but not in bad ways because she is his best friend. But somehow I was jealous and I felt uneasy. By seeing me he could not endure it and he blown out with words "You will never trust me I am only belong to you not to anyone else" I was still not believing him. Because, I was afraid whether it is true or false !!!! Now it seem to be situation became calm down because, I was really regretting for suspecting my love. 

This is all I am telling you because, this kind of issues are quiet natural in "Long Distance Relationships" but however it happens in every couple as others say. If we just see our beloved one in front of us, every second we will be stable. But whenever if any hardships develop in "Long Distance relationships" of course we will miss our partners. because it makes us feel like, seeing his or her emotions, touching their face and wiping off tears. And just we imagine "How I wish I could be beside you so that you will believe me your the only one for me". But there is one magical weapon for this which is known as "True love". If we have true love thing no matter whatever happens we will trust our partner I am sure. 

Today after the fight, I was really regretting with pain and I became dull. I am sure he might be also dull that is why he gave me so many messages saying "I am so sorry" and the funniest part was, he was diverting into another topic to make me smile. Yes I respect love, no matter wherever your, the words from your partner will be always magical. My heart has become so crazy because I was crying and I was missing him badly. However we are girls, girls will not endure much. But boys can endure it yet they will worry but they are steady and balanced in relationship. And one more thing is "Trust". If this is not there, then nothing exists. Am I correct? 

Today I have sketched my emotions on paper. Welcome to the world of love feel it!!! My feelings are dedicated to my prince who is staying far away from me.My every tear is for you.. 

hey girls do you want to dedicate this message to your boys..You can and dear boys I am sure you will be meltdown. This is what the love is "The word Sorry" will make your day calm down. Wowww what a beautiful love.. 

 

Aakhir Dil Toh Bacha Hain Ji" 

I miss you badly I need you badly this was my emotions today when I have really missed him. It's my mood board sketch

I am making my short film based on "Long-Distance relationships"

Woww Seems so fantastic I mean I feel like one director. I guess being director is so lucky. Now I got wonderful chance to enhance my romantic thoughts. Oh!!! don't be surprised I am going to make one fantastic movie and the theme is "Love". Can you all just tell me what is Love?? Is love only about boy and girl meeting each other, going to shopping mall, movie theaters  or enjoying in Park sitting opposite to each other, eating Ice-cream??? I think this is also love but most of them always say this is just an attraction.I guess sometimes it can be true love. What about the love that we are talking girl and boy meet each other through online, seeing, dating and getting to know each other the facts and fake, missing someone very special or putting on songs and listening to every beat imagining your partner with you in class, shopping, hang-outs, or anywhere.. Such as, Long Distance Relationships?? The fact is, most of them do not believe in Long-Distance relationships..

Sometimes I cannot help to wonder, why no one does believes in Long-distance relationships? There is one saying "True love exists when you understand your partner truly at every step of his or her life." So, why cannot this true feeling exists in Long Distance relationships???. Somewhat my film gonna be based on this issue. 

I have created so many concept based on "Love-theme" the first time it was really violent. Second time, the story was done but it was just looking flat like girl and boy meet each other then first 6 months they experience sweet love then hardships develop finally girl will leave him to give him freedom and to give freedom to her heart. Perhaps I have only stick to this story.  But then I got sudden thought that love-stories happen in everyone's life taking new twists new experiences. So  came up with the idea of "Long-Distance Relationships" I think I can take my personal experience from this. That I am dating one person who belongs to different country, it has been one and half year passed now. Sounds really great but I have tough time mostly with my partner. Sometimes, I do not understand his life style neither mine. Because, we don't live each other in same place but we live in different places. Our time goes on by just text chatting or if we really want to feel the emotions then we will put on the webcam. I guess I must thank technology for this. Because, of N-number of social networking sites like Facebook, Orkut, Myspace or Hi-5 this kind of interesting matters are taking place in society.










Some other social networking sits 

Precisely, 90% of worldwide people are getting fascinated towards Long-Distance Relationships. But if you all think that Long-Distance Relationships going to be sweet and lovely then I must say "No". Because, it too has so many complications it too has so many dark sides. There should be deep mutual understanding between couple. 

Now, let us make something interesting here. I just want to ask small question, have you ever had experience of Online dating things??? Can you all share your wonderful experiences here??? If it comes to me, I sometimes feel this is fantasy. Perhaps I did not meet my partner sometimes I don't realize whether he stinks?? haha I make it sound funny. But this is also one truth. Going to imaginations, singing lalala songs or always talking about him or her to your friends. It is fantasy or real??? I have the small doubt in the corner of my brain. so I am gonna make this movie out of it. Hmm, so you all can participate in the small survey.. 

My small question is "have you ever experienced the taste of long-distance relationships?? " 

Have nice day guys, this is me Madhu signing off will be posting one more interesting matter now... 

Have nice day keep smiling 

I guess make love stories is really difficult task..

Love stories are very difficult to make I guess. Because director must be really carefully in screenplay to let audience involve deeply into film. Interestingly I realized the truth yesterday I watched two films based on love theme. The first one is from Cantonese film makers called "All About Love" and the second one is English film for Fox films called "500 Days of Summer". Both are love stories but have different style in screenplay. And I can precisely say, there is nothing comparison between these two movies even though it is based on love theme. Let us talk about Cantonese movie called "All about Love".

"All About Love" this movie is really emotional I bet anyone can shed down tears. Just imagine, if the person you love so much is lost,somewhere far very very far that you even cannot see her shadow neither can see her smile. But you will love yourself with the deepest memories that you have spent with your beloved one. And you want to keep her soul happy every time. I am sure this movie is all about that. Trust me I have deeply involved into the film and I cried. Because, director has successfully in-corporate the emotions on-screen very well. Okay I will narrate the brief story now. There is one doctor called "Mr.Ko" who loves his wife called "Qizeng" but Ko is very busy man who spends little time with his wife. Qizeng, always misses Ko but she wont express anything to him and she is really an ideal wife because she encourages her husband and his profession a lot. She is very lovely person but one night, Ko calls her and promises, that he would be doing dinner with her. Qizeng feels very happy and comes to hospital to pick her husband. Incidentally, Ko stuck in official doctors meeting again thus he fails to keep up the promise. Qizeng accepts him and turns away back to home. On the way she meets with an accident. Thus Qizeng dies. Ko later changes career as paramedic. One night Ko in a call in an ambulance realizes on the way that there is one traffic accident took place involving Sam who is the second main lead actress in the movie. Ko saves her but he realizes that she is the recipient of  his wife's heart that was given to her soon after Qizeng dies. And Sam has husband too whose name is Derek but he left her already he looks alike Ko. Depressed Sam, always cries for her husband. Ko discovers her life and decides that he should spend time with Sam because he wants to full-fill his wife's dreams andhe thinks his wife is alive through heart. Thus Ko gives immense happiness to Sam and Sam does not discover that he is not her husband because they look so similar to each other. Ko full-fills every desire of Qizeng;s heart-beat that she always wanted to spend life with him. Every second he would give so much happiness and he would show colorful life. Incidentally, Sam cannot lead her life longer unless she falls down suddenly with heart stroke and she will be at peak moment fighting for her life. Ko tells her truth that he is not her husband at that time Derek arrives to see his wife who is ill and almost ready to die. After sometime, Sam dies and Ko leads his life head with the memories of his beloved wife qizeng.

It sounds very very interesting but if I would just narrate it, you can find this story-line quiet routine. But guys please watch this movie. This movie is really amazing especially every emotion of every character is heart touching. Ko is the man who truly loves his wife and for her, he dedicates his every memory. His loyal love is so moving. And the screenplay was fantastic. Every scene was done beautifully with extra sound effects and visual effects. This movie was directed by Daniel Yu. This movies pure love-story but it looks tragedy. People who really believe in true love, this is the best movie that I could suggest. And it is not at all boring. Although screenplay was normal but director was so good adding visual elements effectively. And the visual treatment was amazing





The second movie I can talk about is "500 days of Summer" this is not love-story. But this is typical love-story. With the mixture of spice adding up I mean, with the mixture reality of love life adding up into this movie. Sounds very funny but 500 Days of Summer is truly touching. I must agree this movies i reality of love life word. When I was watching each and every scene I thought "Yes it has happened" "yes it does happen". Dark sides of relationship is really shown wonderful. Just imagine again if you love someone so much and your beloved partenr will be also interested in you but he or she just pretends that this relationship is friendship. So how much angry you will get? or how much dilemma you will feel? or you cannot step out but your head will be badly confused with so many doubts circulating around. Finally you cannot decide "Oh God is this love or bullshit"?? Tom Hanse is in that state of mind too. Interestingly, his character is exactly mocking to reality world. His every trait in movie is amazing that you would involve into his character and we will think "Oh such a poor guy why is this Summer not understand him"?? haha now lets begin  with story. Here it starts.

Tom hanse is well talented architect. But he works as writer for greeting cards. Tom hanse meets Summer on Jan 8th who is joined as assistant of boss. Tom hanse falls in love with her at first sight and he develops his interest gradually towards Summer but he wont reveal out his feelings. One night at Karaoke center, Tom hanse fellow friends reveal to Summer that he shows interest on her. Initially, Suner would not react much and warns Tom not to go forward with feelings of love in his heart. That next day during working hours, in the printing room, Summer kisses Tom and shows her interest towards him. Tom feels happy, perhaps it is the truth that Summer would not allow him to love and asks her to be as friend. Their friendship sag continues. Slowly days passes by, Summer ignores Tom. And Summer quits greeting cards office. Tom somehow manages himself to move on. But one day Tom and Summer happen to meet again for their co-worker wedding party, During the wedding night, Summer asks Tom to drop in her house for gathering event. Tom feels excited, and he accepts Summer decision. Tom tries to align his expectations with reality that he will think he could comeback in Summer's life as lover but nothing happens true. Tom feels disappointed and turns down from Summer's house. On day 488, Summer sees Tom at his favorite spot in the city and they talk. Tom states lacks of understanding towards her actions. Summer explains that he was right about about existence of true love that she discovered in someone else all the feelings that she never felt in Tom. Summer holds his hand and gives best wishes to Tom seeks for his happiness to follow him. Then Summer leaves, Tom hopes her best and to be her happy too. Summer smiles then walks away. On day 500, may 23rd Tom attends one Job Interview and meets a girl who is also applying for the same job. They talk and share the interest of the same favorite spot. Before entering to the interview, Tom makes date to have coffee with her afterward. He asks her name and she replies it is "Autumn" thus the movie ends.

This movie was directed by Marc Webb. The film has non-linear narrative structure. That the movie spans around 500 days of Summer and Tom's relationship.










In my opinion. it is an amazing film. Woww I felt so good watching this movie. I think I faced the situation like Tom hanse. Sounds funny but I was not like Summer. In fact it reflects my real life story too. I was just like tom hanse and I had my ex-relationship who used to always say "Lets be friend" gosh I guess he screwed up my mind. Now guys while watching this movie, everyone thought the same some people may have involved themselves like Tom or Summer or Autumn. But it has great spirit too. Tom's expression carried away in entire film very effectively. When break up happens Tom feels miserable and so painful. Especially, I loved the line when tom says "This pop-songs, or greeting cards ,happy living ever after is just fake all is fake" woww I think I have applauded a loud and I thought exactly "yes yes" .. It is an interesting movie. Even the story line is routine too. But the screenplay was really smart, It is complete done in the style of non-linear narrative structure. Director shown every circulation of Summer and Tom's relationship through the animation of days and nature. S as I said there is no comparison of these two movies. But both the moves are interesting with different screenplay. I wish I could make my movie like so cheezy.

So will have to wait and see what happens then and then. So this is what I am gonna say. Tomorrow, I will share some other interesting things keep watching my blog have good day ahead 

Today nothing happened but just had to hear some sorts of blames..

Before starting the topic I would wish everyone Happy Vinayaka Chavathi and Happy Ramzan. Well Good evening everyone. I am still working on my project work, But today I guess I had to bear some mental tensions rather doing final project. Because of my parents no offense intended but my parents think, I am not working just doing time pass. Well no matter, I have tried my maximum level to work on my final project but I did not get any piece. 

Because my parents are wondering I am just the student of Indian University so I have no value I guess. Today my dad has arrived Hyderabad to celebrate the Festival and I slept very late at yesterday night because I was watching one movie and I just scribbled the rough screenplay for my story. So I could not fall asleep early. Today morning I had to wake up very late of course I can understand that I should not wake up late but I was helpless I am dead tired. My mother has banged my bedroom door loudly then my heart beats raised fast I woke up at once and I pumped from bed which gave me horrible headache. This morning, my dad shouted at me and blamed me saying that "Your not working anything and you give pressure to your mom" 

Now what I have to do??? Whenever I am saying I am working my for my final project, my father parents are not believing I am also trying to prove something but they are not interested to watch. Fine, so I cried and my parents said "Give us little poison we will die" This makes me feel so horrified. Now I guess, I have pressure t work on my final project only for the sake of my parents ?? But I think I am not enjoying anything when I am inside house. When I go to college Thank to Varun Sir, he will encourage me a lot. But I want my parents to encourage me forever rather blaming me..

I think I am loosing mental piece. ICAT I am coming there tomorrow that is the only place, where I can sit and do ith concentration. This is just I am sharing with you all, because I want to share my emotions and I am dedicated to myself to my final project. Nothing else, is visible to me except my film. 

Well its the truth for now. Good night will see you tomorrow again