Ladies and Gentleman meet the another character "Madhu"...

Good evening all, sorry for not updating my blog lately since three days. I was really busy in doing the character sketch of a girl now. I remember three days back, I have updated about boy’s character in detail whose name is Nic. Thanks to all my faithful readers who made my article successful. I believe everyone liked his character. I got some possible response from one of my reader called “Abhi” that he found Nic character is more interesting and more appealing, Thank you so much Abhi.... Well, many of them have asked me some questions that this story seems to be so lengthy how can I cut down into short film?? I guess I am slightly confused in this part. But there is no point to be worried at all. I will do my best to make it into short and effective. Well, I will come to the point now. Right now, I am focusing on character description. Sketching the character helps out to develop the story. As I have read from books mentioned that “If you have prepared the rough story line you can describe your character in detail from where you can find the clue to develop the story” I can say its like forming the story from roots of course. .For me, personally it was really fun I felt so great when I designed the character called “Madhu” for my movie. Yes, she would be the female lead actress for a movie.. Now I have sketched down her character and traits that I would like to share with you all..

There is a girl called Madhu who is aged around 21. She belongs to typical South Indian Telugu family. And she is complete Hindu tradition. Her body weight is average. Skin is tan color. She has neither larger either short length hair but the medium length is acceptable. Her hair is black and looks wavy. Her dressing style is completely normal like Telugu ordinary girls. She wears Kurti on jeans and she is not that fashionable in appearance. Comparatively, she is at least not good at getting fashion updates like Nic. But Madhu has lovely eyes. Her eyes are very big as if we feel like it is been projected out. Madhu is extreme lovely person, very friendly and she has very cute smile. Her smile appeals like as if she is very happiest person on Earth. But Madhu, is very very sensitive person. Even though she is sensitive, but she is Independent in her thoughts and living. She knows what to do?? And what not to do. Yet she behaves like child sometimes, but Madhu can also easily forgive her enemies just like Nic does. She is very much talented person. Her passion is acting, dancing, singing (Occasionally), doing art and she always dreams to become an actor and winning reputation from Public. Madhu is not much attached to her family because; her parents do not understand her dreams and desires much. She endures her inner emotions but she never shares with anyone as she has one habit to write personal diary.

Like Nic, Madhu has no big gang of friends. Even though she is friendly and charming, but no one develops to make friendship with her. She has specifically 4 best friends Madhu is not from wealthy family she comes from middle-class background living with her working mother as teacher and Engineer dad. She is self restricted person that never makes friends with any boys and not much out going. She loves to play with dolls and loves watching movies. Her favorite movie genre is always a love story. She is always living in fairytale land of imaginations. She loves “Love”. She is crazy about “Love”, she dies for “Love”, she sings for “Love”. She always thinks love is the only thing that can fulfill her world. She is little impractical person.  This is the only reason that makes her feel sensitive all the time. If anyone shouts at her or looses temper on her she will become sensitive very deep and she will weep in one corner but if once they apologies, her heart melts down and forgives them with smile. Madhu is also University student who is graduating in Digital Media. Whenever she watches any movie, she will indulge into herself and she is also good at imitating others. Apart from this, Madhu has great concern about society who cannot endure the poverty. If she finds out any beggar, she will feed them enough.

Madhu’s life is not much interesting because she is not the good fate for cherished love. She gets heart breaks all the time. Before entering into University, she was like one small kid who has so many friends around but Madhu does not realize who is good, who is bad?? She trusts everyone blindly now that is the main cause for her to be heartbroken very easily. Every boy will laugh at Madhu’s attitude because she gives her greetings to everyone. Unfortunately everyone also thinks, she is kind of mad person. When she enters into University her life changes completely. She suffers from four time heart breaks. Every guy ditched her in vulgar ways or deep hurting ways like having affair with some other girl along with Madhu. Deeply broken Madhu, goes to depression and she looses trust in herself. All her good friends will try to cheer her although she just pretends to smile but she has got nothing to do. During that depressing moment, Madhu creates her profile in social networking sites so that at least she could make some new friends and will have some activity to involve. So here the story of Madhu begins where she meets boy called Nic and she falls in love with him..

After falling in love with him, Madhu begins to smile. And she slowly transforms into better human being. But still, Madhu is kind of immature person. She forces Nic to message her regularly and to talk to her regularly. But Nic, will not leave her like the way how her ex-boyfriends dumped her. But after doing friendship with Nic, through his traits she will change herself. She will love herself. She will also realize the value of life and the responsibility of humanity. But what makes Madhu change?? It’s not just because of his traits it’s because, she is completely involved into his love.. She gets true love on him.. and always thinks that, she has never got this much true feelings on anyone before

And the person who is always living in the fairytale land of imagination, changes slowly into herself like matured person. Now how does she change? How Nic did made magic on her?? Is what will be the part of my story..

I forgot to also mention you all something, Madhu also has health problems that she suffers from severe acidity.. Okay so this is about Madhu. Overall what I can say is, Madhu is not matured girl. She is very childish; she does not know how to deal with her life. She is impractical but Nic’s love changes her.. Now, how he will change her?? Through the character description of both of them, it gave you all some hint I guess.

So next time I will be writing the ways how Madhu is changing and also how Nic is changing and what they are learning from their relationship?

Getting story from character description really helps. And I have observed in so many movies that the story starts with the main lead’s character description and the whole movie runs the story related to their traits. And how their characteristics really help to build up the story and how it twists at every part of scene is what I am doing K-study. I will write an article tomorrow based on my observation and also I will post my storyline day after tomorrow.. I hope you all have liked it. If you have any suggestions you can pass down here, I will be grateful to you all thank you so much.. 

Character description of male lead role called "Nic"

I think After reading about making of short films all these days, I have got one fair idea from everyone's experience that, to make good story you can describe the important lead roles in detail so that you can figure out the proper shaped story line. I guess I had to do it. So now, I came out with the character description of hero in my movie.. Whose name is "Nic" he is Christian guy. Here it starts in this way. Girl meets boy, and girl gets into misunderstandings with him because of his traits.

Nic is faire, looks very young even though he is adult aged around 22. He is University Student and has spectacles on eyes. He has ordinary appearance not much fashionable. He appears to be like studios man. The face is very serious, but it look still cute because of round shaped structure. He is thin but appears to be strong man because of his slight muscles that covers the body. He is dedicated to work. Height is average and has extreme black hair with bouncy feel, its straight therefore silky. He loves singing and passion about movies. he has great social life because of the companion that he got with N-number of friends. He is very kind towards them, that he accepts every one of his friend like brother and sister. He is very adorable towards the society.Perhaps everyone loves to make friendship with him. He loves playing Basketball,travelling and cooking. He is also interested in knowing about current economical state and political system of world.

Besides this, he is also good at gathering the on-going fashion updates. He is very much descent boy who is completely away from party animals, disco nights, late night sleeps, smoking and flirting with girls. But he loves to drink little beer whenever he feels cold or stressed. Therefore, he seem to be like gentleman. He has strong heart attitude. He never cries, never frustrates. Instead, he is super optimistic person who believes in himself. Sometimes he does act like a self absorbed person. He has complicated family background, with his divorced parents and leads life independently with the memories of his late brother who died in early age of 18 due to blood cancer. He never adores his father much, ever since his mother and brother left the family. He has one step mother who treats him badly in such a way that whenever he goes back to home, he never gets proper meals from her. He is attached to his late brother so he does always miss him. He comes from poor family, this is the key reason that he has higher ambitions to earn millions of money. He never rested down and he does not have ordinary life. He is forced to earn money along with study career. He is completely responsible person. He is very honest, never hides his feelings towards anyone. If he has something, he will tell him upfront what they are, just like kind of straight forward person. He loves to enjoy the life with no rules ans restrictions. He is the person who starves for freedom. He always thinks in one way of his track. and says himself "I am myself that is all". He has rarely mood swings. Sometimes, no one can guess why is he sad. He just knows himself that is because of his own family issues.

Even though, Nic lives in dorm, he still have to face some painful consequences. For example, whenever his dad calls him up he first greets his son with stupid abusing words, that makes Nic mind messed up whole day and he will become duller. He is very hard man to move on. He does not want the life to be end up like this.. Although he appears to be strong , he still seems to be like sensitive person. He has one great thing in him that he always endures. No matter how much the problem is big, he never shares with anyone because he cares about other;s feelings that he is afraid they might involve into his problems. So he hides his sadness all the time. He is die heart fan of Jackie chan and has great passion on Kung Fu. He has one big dream that he wanted to become singer. He always sings and tries to upload his songs in his personal blog.

Totally, this kid belongs to himself but what happens when he falls in love? Although he does not know how to cherish his lover but he is extreme loyal person to his girlfriend and never cheats her. He is also very less expressive because he has never experienced love life before. He was truly shy kid, but after the reflections of love that falls in his soul, he will learn how to love. But he knows himself that he loves her all with heart. the problem still rises in between them. Because, the first key point is, Family pressure, earning money, loking after his half brothers too. Who is been forced very badly by his father, helpless situations therefore he forgets to cherish his love-life. This is the central problem in my story that I want to implement.

And the second central problem is, due to enduring his pain and he wont share anything with his girlfriend. Therefore he behaves very strange sometimes although its long distance so she will not understand him sometimes. This leads to misunderstandings in her thoughts that he might be not interested in her anymore. And on top of that, Nic also has high temper that he always bursts on his girlfriend whenever she craves him for love.. So how his girlfriend can deal with his temper?? This may also lead to break up..

So taking out these two elements I thought to implement in my story which will be dramatic and effective for screenplay. Perhaps I am still learning how to use punching dialogues yet. Ok so this is it.. Is it a good idea? Or if you all have any suggestions you can comment on it here..

The feelings of girl missing her boyfriend because he wont come online as he is very busy man
that sometimes he forgets to message her. So she cries next day when she talks to him
He showers his high temper on her and he thinks she did not understand him
so she feels lonely and miserable..
The sketch was done by me..

Trying to Figure out characters..

Today the meeting with our academic head took place well. We got schedules and deadlines for submitting some amount of works regarding final project I guess I have to be well prepared with my story. As I have seen so far I am being dragged very slow for developing the story but however I am only able to fix the rough story line until now. Fortunately, I was able to share this problem with my academic head and he believes that I can take myself in a good form. He has faith in every student as well. So now, everyone is asking me to sit and work on it peacefully. As part of my thing, I am deviating from my track dont understand the reason why? So I decided to kill the idle time.

To develop good story as I mentioned earlier, you can also deeply research about the characters who are involved into story either in social background or traits. As I picked out the theme "Love" for my story, which is all about "Online Dating Fascination", First point is, its truly made from self experiences who has faced some different and interesting consequences in the Long Distance relationships. The second point is, the main lead characters  do emphasize the entire plot from beginning to end. The third point is, crucial period of designing fantastic screenplay. Love stories in the past era has been made with flat screenplay having deep family drama emotions in it. But these era love story movies have been changed so far. All the movies have same beginning and same ending, either it could be happy or tragedy but it has been shown in variety narrative structural form. Youth is getting fascinated towards love and I can say the emotions break down is taking place hype because of "Love". Everyone experiences different kinds of incidents.

Online dating is hot topic in society. People are suffering from break up fever. And technologies growth is hype, and the psychology has changed a lot I mean, they have become very sensitive that if anyone he or she talks to you with so much care and affection then we will be getting attracted to stranger. So, coming from my experiences. I have fell in love with some few guys until I realized the true colors from them that they were jerks. I was in depressing mode because I was crushed down continuously under four boys big dirty feet. Then all of happen sudden , when I opened my MSN profile,  I saw the friend request that I got from one Chinese guy who has introduced himself very cute mentioning that "Hi my name is Andy, I am from China I hope I am not bothering you can you be my friend? Here is my MSN ID if your ready I will also give my Yahoo Mail ID" I was literally laughing after the word called "Bothering" I accepted it. Then he began to chat with me like one best friend. I did not feel like I was chatting with one stranger. Love is magic trust me it is. You cannot search for it on purpose but there is some magic that would be hidden in particular person we will feel so happy after talking to him or her. The same magic I got from Andy. He was my age. And the way he talked to me refreshed my mind. I forgot all my pains in my life and I began to smile. So why did I exactly fall for him?? Because he said "I will never leave to you until the Universe ends". These kind of words I never experienced with any guy before.

So, here the girl is me and I am moved by his words. Not only me, every girl love the men when they will be so expressive. But some of the men will be not expressive and they dont like to me. But they have the true romantic feelings on her. The other part of boys who are out of balance and try to flirt with many girls. Some of them will be neutral. So I am going to pick the first characteristic. That is being not expressive but has true feelings on her. This is very complicated characteristic. Because of this trait, there are so many misunderstanding happening.. So what is next?? You will find out tomorrow.

So I will update the next central problem based on this characteristic tomorrow in a more interesting narrative way. I hope you all have found this interesting.. If there is any moderation you can feel free to comment thank you all "Smile to Your Life" 

Working Hard now as the time passes by…

I guess, I was having good time for few days watching beautiful movies. And its drama genre based movies which are truly love stories that belong to Cantonese and Mandarin languages. I think I got wonderful experience watching these movies.

Well, can you all tell me? What exactly you will be when you will fall in love?? Most of them will transform into another part of human beings but then you won’t realize who you really are?? It could be bad ways; it could be also in good ways. The love is beautiful experience on Universe. Realize this guys… I am so sorry to say this that in this generation most of them feel love as burden. But why?? Why we must feel it as burden. In love everything is pleasure, all the emotions that we accept in our heart sorrows or joy. The true love does exist in this world which is how every human being is born and its blessing from God. I have seen most of the people are breaking up with silly stupid reasons. And I have seen some part of Indian movies that they shown negative shades in love. No offense intended but I can crush it down. Although it is director’s script and his ideas. Personally, I always thought why can’t the movies be made where they will show every beautiful element in love? Now my dreams came true. I watched super wonderful movies in my life.. These movies are connected to me because, its not only about love story but its also about the life. These movies have shown the blissful love which makes every human life beautiful. And these movies dedicated the message to everyone that “Cherish your life with Love”

The first very good movie I have seen is, “It Had To Be You (後備甜心)” which is of Cantonese and it’s the best movie. This is about a girl called Jill who runs the restaurant falls in love with Dentist who is already committed. Even though she has the knowledge about it, she still continues to be with him. But somewhere at the corner of her heart she feels insecure about her life. Then she meets her colleague who’s of her same age and his name is “Jack”. He too loves one Air Hostess who is already committed.  Jack and Jill at beginning of the story will have no good chemistry. Jill misunderstands the appearance of Jack that he might be womanizer. But later, they both will realize that thy lead the same kind of love life. Knowing that both are victims in romantic relationships, Jack and Jill no longer spar with each other and a liking between them start to develop..

And this movie is all about love, the love which is treated as plum cake. Now the film has flat story line as I mentioned above. But if you watch the movie we cannot step out our vision from on-screen. We will be glued to seats. The movie brought fruitful success because; each and every emotion in this film has been carried away effectively. I will tell you one interesting factor in this movie. The girl called “Jill” has one imaginary pet that she always appears with it entire movie. Although no one can see, Jack will insist on claiming that she has imaginary friend. Jill would crush down his words. Here it conveys clearly to viewers that, Jill is one lonely person in this movie. She is emotionally broke down but, she will not expose in front of her colleagues. Therefore, Jack finds out her emotional state that she is very sensitive although appearing to be strong. Eventually both Jack and Jill will fall in love together very immense. And the other interesting crucial element plays here is “The triangle love drama”. Love is very complicated feeling that hides in every human being’s life. Jack and Jill are the victims of the same love triangle relationships. And every tangle that they try to sort it out is one big central problem in this movie. Finally, the screenplay went on smooth with soft musical instruments behind and with heart touching dialogues.

I can say I have watched large amount of Cantonese and Mandarin love stories. But I found that, every story is same with different screenplay although. Here the screenplay is different because of character’s background image. Yes. What I really learnt today from books that to write one wonderful story it is very important to narrate the character’s traits in detail. The different character background will give different outlook to the movie.

For example there is another Mandarin movie called “My dream girl”. This is the movie about one ugly duckling girl called Zhang Ning who lives in slums will turn as beautiful girl from one fashion designer. Sounds so lame but let me describe you the character here. The girl in this movie has poor and in descent social background. But she is found as a daughter for highly rich business man where she was actually lost during her childhood time. The girl has worst traits and behaves very in descent in Public. Therefore her father decides that he must hire one fashion designer who can modify her. Apparently she falls in love with him, without having the knowledge that he is one jerk. As the time passes by, he realizes that she is the only person who can fulfill his life with happiness. And he also realizes that, true love does not require beauty but it does require the beauty of soul.

Its happy ending. Now if you observe the story “It had to be you” and this one somewhat has the same theme that is “Love”. And the same central problem that is, “Waiting for ever lasting true love and facing different consequences finally they realize the truth and living happily ever after”. But still the screenplay has different pledge because of, character’s different social backgrounds and the characteristics of every person. 

\The image from movie "It had to be you 後備甜心"

The image from movie "It had to be you 後備甜心"

The image from Mandarin movie "My Dream Girl"

The image from Mandarin movie "My Dream Girl"

While writing the story, I have noted in my brain that where ever I will go I must capture so many photographs. It could be anything museums or film theatres, restaurants or amusement park. But what is the benefit that I can get through from this?? Partially, I got the knowledge. According to my experiences I realized that, photos will help me to develop the idea for my movie. I got an idea to implement the locations in my movie based on different mood time passes by.. Also I have got an idea of little psychology connected to the locations. For example, if the place is looking so gloomy and so peace that can be depicted for “romantic scenes” if the location is lonely and have fierce surroundings, it can be depicted towards the scene as protagonist may be stuck with some serious dangerous problem or, something shows caution.

Well, this is what the content of research I did all the time. I hope I can do more best job.. Two days back, I went out and captured some photos for bringing up the mood to scene. I will be sharing with you all too..

The mood image of being so lonely and depressed. I found this location
that so miserable and the mood evoked that something is deeply hurt
the feelings are deeply crushed. Which seems to have no one around
Deeply broken down__Photography by me

Have the casual feel and leading normal causal colony life
with sweet neighbors around and this seem to be like
character may belong to middle class family background__Photography by me

The lake view is most famous for lovers. And luckily the love couple have
spotted near by lake. lake view or sea shore view is refreshing
and the breeze passes by, makes us feel romantic
and brings something excitement into heart.
That is why I found so many love couple hanging out near by lake
Photography by me

The refreshing feel and the feeling of missing someone.
The cool mood that evokes in you seeing the beautiful nature.
Green is the ultimate color for every beautiful memory__Photography by me

The refreshing feel and the feeling of missing someone.
The cool mood that evokes in you seeing the beautiful nature.
Green is the ultimate color for every beautiful memory__Photography by me

Love is typical when everything around you is typical..

Yes love is very very typical. And the painful moment is, when the hardships develop. Why? Why everything is so messy around me. I feel so painful in my heart. When everything is fine, the problem arises again. And the depression follows again and again. There is wise saying “The course of true love will never run smooth” I must agree to it. As for me, I am experiencing typical love life. But I feel I am the luckiest person who gained the true love from the true loyalty person. Sometimes I feel like to give up, because of family issue. The key point for the reason to break up is “Family problems”.

Whether it is long distance or reality love, the background problem is always same that is, “Family”. I must laugh myself that why I have been dragged into such situation that no one can help me? I see most of the couple end up because boy may be cheating on girl or girl may be cheating on boy. But the true love also ends up in tragic way. As if now, I am feeling pain in my heart. The pain is what shall I do in future when I must tell my mom and dad that I am loving one guy who is in another country and I want to marry him??.. I cannot express these feelings easily. It is hard, because my mom and dad will not agree for my relationship. Even if I will run away they will curse me down to death. But I cannot leave my love also. He is one man the wonderful person. He understands my feelings deeply from his heart. I am moved by his true love. But it cannot continue till the end destiny? Why is it just because my parents disagree?? With whom I must share this problem? I am getting cry now. I cannot cry in front of him because, he is living far away from me, he is helpless he cannot hug me he cannot save me. So I am enduring the tears and I am just talking to myself that “No everything is gonna be fine”

At that moment, he came online and he buzz me. I was just text chatting so my emotions hide under the curtains of my tears. But he called me from webcam I accepted. I tried my best to endure the tears, but he recognized it very easily and he asked me “What is the matter? Please share with me, is there something wrong?”. I was thinking to share with him about my family problem it reached till my mouth but immediately I stopped and I said “No nothing happened everything is fine”. He is wise guy he can guess from my eyes. And he said “Are you fooling me? I love you so much, I love you very much deeply, and your eyes say you’re not happy. What happened honey?”. Honey!! The word honey vibrated my body and immediately I thought to hug him tight and cry on his shoulder loudly. But it cannot happen.. I could not endure my tears longer and I told him “Listen, my mom and dad will not accept our relationship what can I do?” Then he said “But you said, your mom and dad will accept us”. Huh!!! I laughed myself. Elders are so good at changing their ideas towards children. No offense, but my parents change their minds very easily that I am so much frustrated with their traits. I told him “Yes they said it, but now they broke the promise. What shall I do?” I cried like one baby. He was clueless!! Shocked and he looked outside window. He moved away from webcam and I became miserable thinking that may be I disappointed him. He bowed down his head and he was thinking, thinking ,thinking!!!! I did not understand and I asked him “What is the matter? You do not say anything” he said “I will not give up. I will never give up. No matter whatever happens, I will marry with you, because I don’t care what others will think, I want my love I cannot leave you. If you will go away I will be sad forever. I am lifeless my body is dead. Please don’t leave me” he pleaded me a lot. And I said “Okay I wont leave you dear I will be with you no matter whatever happens”.. Situation became calm down now we are fine. But some fear left in the corner of my heart and I still thought about that whether I can marry him or not??

This is one key problem for the reason that why couples mostly break up.. Some lovers have guts to elope and marry.. But some lovers cannot do that they will obey their parents and marry someone of their choice. Some lovers will attempt suicide because of their lost love. Now, what about my destination no one knows. But this is the interesting key problem that I can add in my movie too. I will show this problem from girl’s dark sides of life which creates the central problem for couple. This is my second idea. May be I can do this effectively too. So boy has family problems the same as girl.. And the love is tangled how to get rid off it.. Is what I am going to solve now..

My opinion is, please do not leave your beloved one for something.. It gives more pain I cannot express but my tears can say this. It is still in my eyes. 

The feelings of a boy when girl leaves him for the sake of
his happiness and when she do not
want to pressure him with her family reasons..
He misses her a lot, because he does not want to
loose her and these words comes from his heart..
"The theme wallpaper designed by me, for my short film
project {Smile To Your Life} in Adobe PS CS4"

The feelings of a boy when girl leaves him for the sake of
his happiness and when she do not
want to pressure him with her family reasons..
He misses her a lot, because he does not want to
loose her and these words comes from his heart..
"The theme wallpaper designed by me, for my short film
project {Smile To Your Life} in Adobe PS CS4"

I am Sorry.. Wow your so kind although you stay far away from me..

It’s been many days that I am not writing blog. Oh My god I cannot even count how many days I have missed it !!! There is one saying “Empty vessels make so much noise” I am afraid I would be joining in that category, lol I don’t want that thing to happen in my life. Well, point is I am not updating my blog since many days because, I was not well and at the some stage of path I was stuck in the middle of road and I paused for a while just have been thinking “What am I really doing?”. Some distractions took place in my life and some hardships I have come across. That’s absolutely right guys I guess you all have must be coming to the point that my mood was off. It is true, my mood was off for several days and I was stuck. I could not really drag myself into work. Honestly I admit, because of some personal issues you all know the one word comes here “Love”..

Well in these days, I was clueless my mind blocked and it was stopped working for sometime. Because, I was just wondering what is happening in my life? Now that I have decided to make a movie and its on Long distance relationship which comes from my personal experiences is really a big deal. Last few days I met my academic head with question mark face and I sat in front of him just asked one question “Sir What to do next?” my academic head guided me very well and he said “Watch movies, and read so many screenplays then sketch your rough ideas on paper”. I got boost confidence back and I went to home then thought to rough sketch my plan. Soon I realized, it was worthless again when the big storm broke my sense. That was about my boyfriend. And he lives somewhere far away from me in different country what I would know is nothing. I saw his profile and I saw some sad logs that he updated. I was worried and I buzz him on, I just asked him “What happened are you okay?” Then he immediately responded “Everything is fine I don’t know why do you ask these questions?”. Then I became furious my eyes turned red and I was boiling like fried chicken under fire which means I got severe angry with his actions, and I told him “Why the heck are you loosing temper on me? when I am asking you the question?”. Well of course my hero has terrible patience and he said “Listen!! My life is destroying, I am short of money and I don’t know what to do!! I am just 22 I have got huge responsibilities. I want to go back home in this vacation and I want to celebrate my time with my mother. But I have no money what can I do? Why am I born so poor? You don’t understand this because you’re living far away from me. Who can save me?”… I was worried and I saw his weepy tears I thought to wipe his eyes but it was in webcam and I could not do anything my hands reached till on-screen but I got frustrated of this long distance stuff and finally I released my long breathe. Therefore he thought I did not believe him and he said “If you don’t believe me I am helpless”. I should have been kept quiet but I was still in bad mood and I asked him “At least do you miss me?” He got angry again and he said “You will never change. I am destroyed I want my girl to give me courage, freedom and wiping my tears away. You cannot do this. This love and all is sad, marriage is big deal how do you know? You always live in fairy land world and you don’t understand about this responsibility. Do you think it is easy? No ways not at all in fact I don’t expect anything from you”

He kept on I was panting, and I got so much sweats after listening to his words and I said “Stop!! Stop!!Stop!! I beg you I am not well now please stop!!” and he immediately signed off. I folded my body like one small child. I hold my blanket very tight and I crumbled it with painful tears I sat in one corner freeze and I got high fever. I endured my tears when my friend Kalyani who happens to be my childhood friend called me up she asked me several times “What happened please tell me” I hided my tears and I said “I am fine”. I thought to not share this with my dearly people because their mood would be upset. There is some magic around him even though he stays far away from me. Earlier days I used to tell everyone openly about my personal problems some people used to laugh, some people shown mercy and some people gave me courage just like my old buddy Adam who is in Bangalore now. Well, after sometime, he gave me message saying that “I am so sorry I have hurt you dear.. I am really sorry. It is because, my mood was not well please forgive me. I never mean that. You’re my snow white you’re my angel. Please forgive me” I was shocked!! When he lost temper on me, I got so much angry and I developed hype negative feelings on him. But he did not do that. He has shown me the beautiful moment once again. I was afraid we will break up but it did not happen. He said “My hand in your hand we are one not two… No matter whatever it is, I will hold you tight and I will walk long way with you until the Universe dies” the words really touched my heart.

What if break-up happens? I cannot endure the pain really. Long distance relationships are very very sensitive we should handle it like baby. When I discussed about the issue called “Misunderstandings” with my academic head, he said “Misunderstandings may also develop even in face to face relationship also” So I got the point. But when I told my friends they said “Although it happens, it is easy to work out since he or she will stay right in front of you” . So Long Distance is very typical. Women will cry for men because they miss them. But men have plenty of things to handle. Interestingly, some men do not care about responsibilities and they enjoy with love life, but some men being in love they will be still responsible themselves and they will also make their girlfriend alert. May be I am one of them!!!

So this kind of situations I faced since 1 week and now my head is heat. Everything fixed in a right place. And situations are calm down. Perhaps I can work on this issue as a central problem for my movie also. Isn’t that gonna be amazing? I have to think more because I got the idea I will work on more still..

Well this is about today. Sorry for not updating my blog. I will try my best to be on track. Hopefully I can do it.. Thank you all Happy Dussehra keep smiling.. Like my movie title says “Smile To Your Life”

The Theme drawing I did based on this issue the sign which means “My hand in your hand we are one not two… No matter whatever it is, I will hold you tight and I will walk long way with you until the Universe dies” 

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The Theme drawing I did based on this issue the sign which means “My hand in your hand we are one not two… No matter whatever it is, I will hold you tight and I will walk long way with you until the Universe dies”