It’s been many days that I am not writing blog.
Oh My god I cannot even count how many days I have missed it !!! There is one
saying “Empty vessels make so much noise” I am afraid I would be joining in
that category, lol I don’t want that thing to happen in my life. Well, point is
I am not updating my blog since many days because, I was not well and at the some
stage of path I was stuck in the middle of road and I paused for a while just
have been thinking “What am I really doing?”. Some distractions took place in
my life and some hardships I have come across. That’s absolutely right guys I
guess you all have must be coming to the point that my mood was off. It is
true, my mood was off for several days and I was stuck. I could not really drag
myself into work. Honestly I admit, because of some personal issues you all
know the one word comes here “Love”..
Well in these days, I was clueless my mind blocked and it was
stopped working for sometime. Because, I was just wondering what is happening
in my life? Now that I have decided to make a movie and its on Long distance
relationship which comes from my personal experiences is really a big deal.
Last few days I met my academic head with question mark face and I sat in front
of him just asked one question “Sir What to do next?” my academic head guided
me very well and he said “Watch movies, and read so many screenplays then
sketch your rough ideas on paper”. I got boost confidence back and I went to
home then thought to rough sketch my plan. Soon I realized, it was worthless
again when the big storm broke my sense. That was about my boyfriend. And he
lives somewhere far away from me in different country what I would know is
nothing. I saw his profile and I saw some sad logs that he updated. I was
worried and I buzz him on, I just asked him “What happened are you okay?” Then
he immediately responded “Everything is fine I don’t know why do you ask these
questions?”. Then I became furious my eyes turned red and I was boiling like
fried chicken under fire which means I got severe angry with his actions, and I
told him “Why the heck are you loosing temper on me? when I am asking you the
question?”. Well of course my hero has terrible patience and he said “Listen!!
My life is destroying, I am short of money and I don’t know what to do!! I am
just 22 I have got huge responsibilities. I want to go back home in this
vacation and I want to celebrate my time with my mother. But I have no money what
can I do? Why am I born so poor? You don’t understand this because you’re
living far away from me. Who can save me?”… I was worried and I saw his weepy
tears I thought to wipe his eyes but it was in webcam and I could not do anything
my hands reached till on-screen but I got frustrated of this long distance
stuff and finally I released my long breathe. Therefore he thought I did not
believe him and he said “If you don’t believe me I am helpless”. I should have
been kept quiet but I was still in bad mood and I asked him “At least do you
miss me?” He got angry again and he said “You will never change. I am destroyed
I want my girl to give me courage, freedom and wiping my tears away. You cannot
do this. This love and all is sad, marriage is big deal how do you know? You
always live in fairy land world and you don’t understand about this responsibility.
Do you think it is easy? No ways not at all in fact I don’t expect anything
from you”
He kept on I was panting, and I got so much sweats after listening
to his words and I said “Stop!! Stop!!Stop!! I beg you I am not well now please
stop!!” and he immediately signed off. I folded my body like one small child. I
hold my blanket very tight and I crumbled it with painful tears I sat in one
corner freeze and I got high fever. I endured my tears when my friend Kalyani
who happens to be my childhood friend called me up she asked me several times “What
happened please tell me” I hided my tears and I said “I am fine”. I thought to
not share this with my dearly people because their mood would be upset. There
is some magic around him even though he stays far away from me. Earlier days I
used to tell everyone openly about my personal problems some people used to
laugh, some people shown mercy and some people gave me courage just like my old
buddy Adam who is in Bangalore
What if break-up happens? I cannot endure the pain really. Long
distance relationships are very very sensitive we should handle it like baby.
When I discussed about the issue called “Misunderstandings” with my academic
head, he said “Misunderstandings may also develop even in face to face
relationship also” So I got the point. But when I told my friends they said “Although
it happens, it is easy to work out since he or she will stay right in front of
you” . So Long Distance is very typical. Women will cry for men because they
miss them. But men have plenty of things to handle. Interestingly, some men do
not care about responsibilities and they enjoy with love life, but some men
being in love they will be still responsible themselves and they will also make
their girlfriend alert. May be I am one of them!!!
So this kind of situations I faced since 1 week and now my head is
heat. Everything fixed in a right place. And situations are calm down. Perhaps
I can work on this issue as a central problem for my movie also. Isn’t that
gonna be amazing? I have to think more because I got the idea I will work on
more still..
Well this is about today. Sorry for not updating my blog. I will try
my best to be on track. Hopefully I can do it.. Thank you all Happy Dussehra keep
smiling.. Like my movie title says “Smile To Your Life”
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| The Theme drawing I did based on this issue the sign which means “My hand in your hand we are one not two… No matter whatever it is, I will hold you tight and I will walk long way with you until the Universe dies” |
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| The Theme drawing I did based on this issue the sign which means “My hand in your hand we are one not two… No matter whatever it is, I will hold you tight and I will walk long way with you until the Universe dies” |
woooooooooooooooo so interesting... i was like, what will happen next??? great gal! keep up the spirit!
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