That was a time during the year 2000, Telugu film industry which happens to be locating in South India, was actually rocking. I was just 11 to 12 year old but I was very bright at my age quite matured too. I used to watch so many Telugu movies because of existence of so many handsome actors. One of them was "Uday Kiran". He was introduced to films in the year 2000 and then he never looked back. He left giant charm in every one of his fan. Uday Kiran has completely occupied in my heart . The moment I watched him on TV the very first thing that drove my attention towards him, was his beautiful smile.
I fainted, I drowned into the ocean of love. That time, I used to have huge crush on Uday Kiran. According to that, he used to work in such type of movies where girls can easily build one kingdom for this charming prince. He used to be a lover boy, he always chose to work in beautiful love stories. Whenever he smiled at any scene there was cute dimple always popping up on his cheek. He would surrounded by many women whenever he used to go outside. He was much adored by teenage girls, he was an icon for youth, he was also an icon as lover. If any girl would dream to get married, then she would always imagine her husband must be looking like Uday Kiran.
I always wanted to meet him but never happened in my life. When I was 12 year old, Uday Kiran was successful leading hero in industry he was flooded with so many TV shows and I was always staring at him, melting down, then slowly fainting to heavenly world. I was school going kid apparently, my school happens to be world's largest stinking school. Teachers were so strict, loads of homework, every day was an exam and sometimes surprising tests. Eww!!! Isn't that terrible??? But I must admit I was one lucky kid because, regardless of how much stress I experienced I was never broken. That is only because of Uday Kiran movies.
Perhaps, whenever I used to go to school I used to listen to his songs on my mini radio that I always carried in my bag. Whenever my teacher used to scold me I always imagined his smile and slowly my anger fades away. My frustrations towards exams also faded away just because of Uday Kiran.
My dad always used to surprise me by taking me to his movies on the first day of release. There was so much joy for me, there was great revere towards him. Even I grew up as an adult but still I never stopped watching his films, interviews and most importantly his lovely romantic songs. Sometimes, I was so jealous on his co-stars I used to feel "How lucky they are!!!!" The way his characters have been portrayed in every film was so adorable.
Today, it's been one week already after his death. You all are surprised isn't it??? Yes sadly, Uday Kiran died one week ago and it has been reported that he was lack of film offers which drove him into depression. This has caused him to commit suicide. But you know what??? I never feel Uday Kiran is died. I always feel like he is alive may be he is existing in every part of the nature. I feel like I am being watched by him.
Yesterday at evening, I was waking at the park, after 35 minutes of rigorous walk I took the direction of my old school and I walked through that street. God!!!! It was so nostalgic. Every nook and corner of the street was reminding me those days when I was huge fan of Uday Kiran movies. I wore school dress, having two braids, carrying my lunch basket, jumping on the street while humming his movie songs. Those were the days!!! It is so miracle for me, because I felt the presence of Uday Kiran beside me. The cool breeze passed through my face suddenly and my body trembled. My hands and feet suddenly started to sweat. I did feel the presence of Uday Kiran that moment. Although, I cannot see his physical appearance but I could feel his delicate soul coming closer to me to spread more love.
Exactly one week ago, I felt squeamish. That morning was horrifying. I was normally packing my bag for going to institution then I heard the panic voice from my sister, that she was telling me "Uday Kiran is gone he is dead" I collapsed and froze. At some point I thought my sister was lying or this must be publicity stunt. But after few minutes, pictures started to flood over the internet of his dead body. That was it!!! I went so deep into the darkest world I just couldn't utter one word. I walked straight to my classes, although vehicles were moving back and forth on the street, I still felt the absence of my spirit. I just did not know what to do. I started to pray to God then beg him to return him to this planet. Give his heart beat back, give his breathe back. Let him survive because he has long way to go.
But, I was slowly realizing some day some one must leave this world. Uday Kiran may be not here in this world but he has life in paradise world. He must have been so stressed and so much heart broken when he was alive. He must have been depressed poor guy did not get any help from anywhere. Finally, Uday Kiran wanted to search his own path so he chose this way. But, he never thought about his fans may be he did not realize that he still had fans even though some recommended actors have dominated this industry.
I was waiting for his more films, to see his charm, to listen to his songs, to watch his every move. But now, I cannot see anymore because he wants to rest in peace. He wants to take long holiday until next birth. He is so tired, he wants to sleep. I will let him leave this world peacefully. Because, I am not just big fan of him I am also devotee. May be last week I was shattered, but I begin to realize that he is not going to leave me or any of his true fan alone. He will be with me, us and everywhere. He wants us to be happy still cheering for him.
"Dear Uday Kiran, you are an angel now, you are being taken care of so many angels don't worry you are in peace and harmony. May be not this time but in the next birth you will born like a man with real guts like Tiger, you must kill those who killed your peace of mind. I love you Uday and I would never miss you, because you are in my heart".
I fainted, I drowned into the ocean of love. That time, I used to have huge crush on Uday Kiran. According to that, he used to work in such type of movies where girls can easily build one kingdom for this charming prince. He used to be a lover boy, he always chose to work in beautiful love stories. Whenever he smiled at any scene there was cute dimple always popping up on his cheek. He would surrounded by many women whenever he used to go outside. He was much adored by teenage girls, he was an icon for youth, he was also an icon as lover. If any girl would dream to get married, then she would always imagine her husband must be looking like Uday Kiran.
I always wanted to meet him but never happened in my life. When I was 12 year old, Uday Kiran was successful leading hero in industry he was flooded with so many TV shows and I was always staring at him, melting down, then slowly fainting to heavenly world. I was school going kid apparently, my school happens to be world's largest stinking school. Teachers were so strict, loads of homework, every day was an exam and sometimes surprising tests. Eww!!! Isn't that terrible??? But I must admit I was one lucky kid because, regardless of how much stress I experienced I was never broken. That is only because of Uday Kiran movies.
Perhaps, whenever I used to go to school I used to listen to his songs on my mini radio that I always carried in my bag. Whenever my teacher used to scold me I always imagined his smile and slowly my anger fades away. My frustrations towards exams also faded away just because of Uday Kiran.
My dad always used to surprise me by taking me to his movies on the first day of release. There was so much joy for me, there was great revere towards him. Even I grew up as an adult but still I never stopped watching his films, interviews and most importantly his lovely romantic songs. Sometimes, I was so jealous on his co-stars I used to feel "How lucky they are!!!!" The way his characters have been portrayed in every film was so adorable.
Today, it's been one week already after his death. You all are surprised isn't it??? Yes sadly, Uday Kiran died one week ago and it has been reported that he was lack of film offers which drove him into depression. This has caused him to commit suicide. But you know what??? I never feel Uday Kiran is died. I always feel like he is alive may be he is existing in every part of the nature. I feel like I am being watched by him.
Yesterday at evening, I was waking at the park, after 35 minutes of rigorous walk I took the direction of my old school and I walked through that street. God!!!! It was so nostalgic. Every nook and corner of the street was reminding me those days when I was huge fan of Uday Kiran movies. I wore school dress, having two braids, carrying my lunch basket, jumping on the street while humming his movie songs. Those were the days!!! It is so miracle for me, because I felt the presence of Uday Kiran beside me. The cool breeze passed through my face suddenly and my body trembled. My hands and feet suddenly started to sweat. I did feel the presence of Uday Kiran that moment. Although, I cannot see his physical appearance but I could feel his delicate soul coming closer to me to spread more love.
Exactly one week ago, I felt squeamish. That morning was horrifying. I was normally packing my bag for going to institution then I heard the panic voice from my sister, that she was telling me "Uday Kiran is gone he is dead" I collapsed and froze. At some point I thought my sister was lying or this must be publicity stunt. But after few minutes, pictures started to flood over the internet of his dead body. That was it!!! I went so deep into the darkest world I just couldn't utter one word. I walked straight to my classes, although vehicles were moving back and forth on the street, I still felt the absence of my spirit. I just did not know what to do. I started to pray to God then beg him to return him to this planet. Give his heart beat back, give his breathe back. Let him survive because he has long way to go.
But, I was slowly realizing some day some one must leave this world. Uday Kiran may be not here in this world but he has life in paradise world. He must have been so stressed and so much heart broken when he was alive. He must have been depressed poor guy did not get any help from anywhere. Finally, Uday Kiran wanted to search his own path so he chose this way. But, he never thought about his fans may be he did not realize that he still had fans even though some recommended actors have dominated this industry.
I was waiting for his more films, to see his charm, to listen to his songs, to watch his every move. But now, I cannot see anymore because he wants to rest in peace. He wants to take long holiday until next birth. He is so tired, he wants to sleep. I will let him leave this world peacefully. Because, I am not just big fan of him I am also devotee. May be last week I was shattered, but I begin to realize that he is not going to leave me or any of his true fan alone. He will be with me, us and everywhere. He wants us to be happy still cheering for him.
"Dear Uday Kiran, you are an angel now, you are being taken care of so many angels don't worry you are in peace and harmony. May be not this time but in the next birth you will born like a man with real guts like Tiger, you must kill those who killed your peace of mind. I love you Uday and I would never miss you, because you are in my heart".
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