Beauty does not really matter, even though it is Long Distance love

But unfortunately I cannot calm down sometimes. I think I am too nosy knowing the facts from him. May be because I cannot see my love what he is doing there in different country. It sounds really fascinating but it is not. Well, I start comparing myself to historical queens that they used to wait for their husband for homecoming from wars. To inform their husbands how much they love, they used to send letters through pigeons. What a beautiful communication!!! I guess now I am just like queen and my boyfriend can be King. Where as mails are pigeons. Haha sounds really funny. But major overlaps I am not queen. I am sure queens had never suspected their Prince or King whatever it is. But I did stupid thing since yesterday. I will share one interesting issue here. I have done the research yesterday about men’s psychology from elders’ point of view. They gave plain statement that “If girls are so beautiful, then men will surely get attracted to them and they will be committed forever. If it is not possible, then men will leave keep on ignore them” darn!! I thought it was such a ridiculous pain. By the way, I heard this saying from my mom. I was deeply involved into the topic, then my heart beats rose very fast when I visualized about my lover. He is also staying somehow far away from me, when I put on webcam I look so pale, black, and very weak like stinky pig. Because I come to home with whole lot of pollution on my face. I am just the victim of ugly looking sort of insecure feeling. Now that is really sad thing.

And I have put on webcam normally to chat with my hero. And he was so handsome that night, which no wonder I was truly flattered and I just looked into him but did not utter one single word. He thought I’m almost dead lol. And he pinged me up suddenly “What is wrong?”. Then I asked one stupid question “Do you love me?”. He said “Of course I do, why do you think I do not love you?”. Then I have shared the discussions of elders’ statement on men. Then he said “So?” and I started the topic “May be you will also leave me because I am not that beautiful person”. Frankly speaking, yes, I am not so good looking, I am not charming, I am just black, and sometimes I sweat a lot. I am not hot or sexy bombshell. I do not wear mini-skirts. I just follow my own style of tradition. And my hero is perfectly alright with it. He was so good that he never pointed out on my outfits yet. Perhaps his mood has become worse once I started to suspect him. And he immediately reacted “Come on, calm down, I am not that handsome either. By the way, I do not really care about beauty, what matters for me is heart and soul and your really beautiful because you care about me so why the hell you suspect me?. I never suspected you please forgive me I must leave for works” Then darn he was offline just disconnected the chat. I was completely afraid then I have buzzed him repeatedly he said “Sorry dear I am busy with works” I took long breathe and I was exhausted mentally. How I seriously wish I can stay there so that I can figure out what does he really feels about me.

Fantastic thing I learnt today for my topic. Is anyone hearing to me??? I was thinking in a wrong way all through my life that, true love only relays on outer beauty. But I am crushed. I realized that true love does not depend upon the way how you look it matters with the soul and heart. The beautiful logic from my research comes out that, we can modify our face by using so many cosmetics, we can makeover our looks, and we can buy so many beautiful dress. But we cannot change the heart. Because it is so sensitive if you change it will die. Yes it is really true. And I think sometimes these issues can happen because of long distance problems. I was deeply moved by it haha. Today I went to Saroor Nagar park, where I found so many love birds chit-chatting together and passing through nice time. I saw each and every lover was looking so ordinary and not much good looking in appearance. So what we see in films is different but what we see in real world is T-totally opposite.

Thought for the day “Never run for looks and calm down girl calm down. No matter if he stays far away from you, come on you gotta believe him because he is true”

Guess this is the best point for my movie. I am so excited haha.

Madhu will call it as the end for tonight. But tomorrow I will put up more about the documentation with some extra effort on my work. I will keep on going

 Good Night and keep smiling..